give me a little confidence...

I was feeling crappy yesterday and didn’t feel like doing much around the house. So instead, I spent all my time on the computer downloading my pictures from a CD.

After awhile, I got bored and decided to try out my digital camera. I began by taking pictures of me. I’ve been so down and out lately about myself. And, of course, I haven’t been doing anything as far as exercising and keeping with a diet either. I figured if I take a picture of myself, I can see the real me and how awful I look and just maybe it would help me push myself to do something. Unfortunately, as of yet, I can’t download my pics from my digital camera to my computer. I think I need a new computer!

Funny thing is that, after taking a few pictures of myself, a couple of them actually came out pretty decent. In fact, better than I ever imagined. I decided to go a little further with this and took a picture of my belly…and again to my surprise I didn’t look fat… I think I actually looked thinner in the picture than in real life, so I took this even further and exposed not only my belly but a little of my boobs too! OMG! I couldn’t believe what I was doing… what has gotten into me…! Looking at myself like that…! Even though I must admit, they actually came out nice… I decided it was best to delete them…in case it got in the wrong hands! When my hubby came home, I told him what I had done and showed him the pictures. He was amazed and freaked out, as this is not typical of me. He said he would have loved to been able see the other pictures that I deleted. Maybe next time, when I get the nerve to do it again!

I don’t know why, but after seeing those pictures, it made me feel a little better about myself…and gave me a little boost of confidence.

Later, we got ready and went bowling. I’m not a good bowler as I’ve only bowled maybe a total 10 times in my lifetime. But I can honestly say, I had a good time. Afterwards, we were supposed to go to my aunt’s birthday party but it continued snowing last night and we decided to stay at the bowling alley instead. We ate there and soon it was karaoke time! I actually got the nerve to go up and sing (if you can call it that!) in front of strangers! Could you believe it? But I had fun doing it! ;)