I hate shopping...!

I’ve been trying to go shopping for something to wear to our office Christmas party and haven’t been able to do so.  I’m always doing things at the last minute.  I can’t go shopping after work because I have to go directly to the school to pick up the kids.  It’s hard to go during the week…by the time we get home from work/school, kids, homework, dinner, etc., the stores are already closed.  

My hubby had told me yesterday that he would go pick up the kids so I could go shopping…and that didn’t work.   He ended up being too busy so again I didn’t go. Today, I finally told him he had to make some time to pick up the kids.  I really had to go buy myself something to wear.  I did check my closet first to see if I could find something.  I really didn’t want to go shopping and spend money if I didn’t have to.  Believe me, I’m not one to shop.  In fact, I hate shopping (at least when it comes to me).  I don’t mind shopping for others…but not for ME.  I get so depressed because there are so many cute clothes I could wear… but I’m either not comfortable, not my style or I’m too big to wear those clothes.   I hardly ever buy myself anything.  My sisters always end up buying them for me and sometimes I end up never wearing them because again, I don’t feel comfortable… I feel like I have to cover up my big buddy.  They tell me I should ‘t do it because it actually make me look bigger.

Work was business as usual.  I was surprised when my coworkers and my boss gave me presents!  That was very nice of them!  They were quite a few presents that I had to carry them in two bags!  I knew I had to go shopping and I didn’t want to leave the bags at work and I definitely didn’t want to have to carry them tomorrow.   Carrying those bags while shopping was a big mistake.  They were not light and as time passed they seem to get heavier and heavier!  I went to a couple of stores and I immediately became aggravated:  (1) I was getting tired of carrying those bags and the lady at the counter said she couldn’t keep them for me while I shop; (2) there were too many things to chose from (which I hate because I can’t ever decide on anything!) and (3) it was crowded and there were long lines at the register.  

Forget this!  I give up!  I can honestly say…. I HATE SHOPPING!!!!! Especially during the holidays!  I can’t believe it took me two hours and I didn’t buy myself anything.   How frustrating!  

I finally called my sister to ask her if she would go with me after she got out of work.  THANK YOU SIS!  She’s great!  I don’t know what I would do without her!  She can always help me pick out something nice (she quickly stops me when I’m about to pick out something that’s too big, to old looking or ugly).   She helped me pick out two nice blouses (now I have to decide which one to wear for tomorrow).  I decided on wearing pants with it.  I haven’t worn skirts or dresses in so long that I don’t feel comfortable wearing them anymore!  

I hope I can get it together.  I’m so tired and sore at this time (from carrying those bags and last night I also shoveled snow from our front porch, stairway and walkway!).  I don’t know how I’m going to manage getting up tomorrow!  And to boot, I’ve been stressed out that I got a big pimple on my chin!  Yuck!